
Break the Game
Season 37 Episode 13 | 52m 57sVideo has Audio Description, Closed Captions
Legend of Zelda streamer Narcissa Wright breaks records and finds love in the digital age.
After coming out as a trans woman, world-record-holding gamer, Narcissa Wright loses her massive fanbase. To win them back, she attempts to set a new record in The Legend of Zelda: Breath of the Wild, live-streaming every minute of her quest. Break the Game is a moving exploration of gamer culture, the realities of online harassment, and the mental health implications of living a digital life.
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Break the Game
Season 37 Episode 13 | 52m 57sVideo has Audio Description, Closed Captions
After coming out as a trans woman, world-record-holding gamer, Narcissa Wright loses her massive fanbase. To win them back, she attempts to set a new record in The Legend of Zelda: Breath of the Wild, live-streaming every minute of her quest. Break the Game is a moving exploration of gamer culture, the realities of online harassment, and the mental health implications of living a digital life.
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Learn Moreabout PBS online sponsorship♪♪ ♪♪ ♪♪ ♪♪ [ Electronic beeping, whirring ] ♪♪ [ Mouse clicks, keys clack ] [ Tones play ] [ Computer dings ] [ Mouse clicking ] [ Keys clacking ] -That game is going to shake up the "Zelda" formula so much, and I have an incredibly good feeling about it.
-[ Chuckles ] -I don't have words.
[ Mouse clicks, keys clacking ] [ Scroll wheel clicks ] -[ Mouse clicks ] -Welcome, Level Uppers, to a live reaction to the Nintendo Switch presentation.
-Check out the new "Zelda: Breath of the Wild."
-I am beyond excited.
-[ Gasps ] -Let's go, my boys!
That's the sun!
-6, 5... -4... -3... -2... -1!
[ Bird crying ] -That is gorgeous.
-It's the Master Sword.
♪♪ -Oh!
♪♪ [ All cheering ] ♪♪ -Let's go!
Let's go!
-Yes!
-[ Mouse clicks ] [ Keys clacking ] [ Mouse clicks ] [ Computer dinging ] -Hello.
Hey, D-Gurl.
Wait.
Hold on.
-[ Computer dings ] -A legacy video that goes through past stuff that I've done, then speedrunning, and jumps to the present at the end.
[ Computer dinging ] I'm looking for a folder on my computer.
[ Keys clacking ] Ancient selfies from the past.
[ Mouse clicks ] [ Audio playing backwards ] -One of the premier video-game speedrunners.
Welcome to the show!
-Hey.
Thanks for having me.
-So, speedrunning.
-My whole life I've been so passionate about video games.
I ended up stumbling across all these people trying to break the game, exploiting the game, abusing the game's code, and just finding some way to get to the end super fast.
-Wa-wa-wa-wa-hoo!
-That's a new world record.
[ Cheers and applause ] -Yes, dude!
Yes!
I [bleep] finally did it.
-World [bleep] record.
-The moment I saw it, I just jumped in headfirst.
I'm wearing this headset.
I'm, like, wired in.
There's like three cords coming out of me right now.
We're gonna [bleep] go in hard.
Oh!
[Bleep] It's over.
"Ocarina of Time" is dead.
-Cosmo Wright, the current world-record holder on "Zelda: Ocarina of Time."
How fast can you do that game?
-18 minutes and 10 seconds.
-When I was 16, I played through "Ocarina of Time."
It took me weeks.
-He basically skipped the entire game and was able to manipulate the code.
-This is your full-time job.
This is what you do, right?
-19 hours of hard work.
-His self-made job is literally to play video games, broadcasting his play through the Internet around the world.
-You immediately have an audience, right?
-How about Cosmo, everyone?
-Oh, absolutely.
Several thousand usually tune in for "Zelda."
-I heard some people going by here yelling, "Cosmo, Cosmo."
Do you get that a lot?
-Ah!
-Cosmo!
[ Sobbing ] I love you!
-Sometimes I meet a bunch of people who want to get a picture with me or something.
I'm just, like, kind of sitting in my room playing games, but now there's all these people who know who I am.
♪♪ [ Cheers and applause ] ♪♪ [ Exhales heavily ] [ Computer dings ] I'm proud of my past.
But people think that the magic's just gone.
[ Computer dings ] I didn't expect all those people to unfollow me.
I can't let myself be torn down like that.
"Zelda: Breath of the Wild" is coming out soon.
This is a huge moment for me.
♪♪ [ Birds chirping ] ♪♪ My peak viewership back in the day was 18,300.
So if I don't get 20,000 viewers, I'm always failing to outdo my past, and I can't stand for that.
[ Computer dings ] ♪♪ -[ Gasps ] -I know that I'm still capable of everything.
And I'm gonna surpass everything.
[ Indistinct shouting ] Everything I've ever done before, I'm surpassing all of it.
Maybe they'll start to see who I am... [ Crowd cheers ] ...and finally have it in their hearts to respect me.
♪♪ [ Monkeys chittering ] [ Birds chirping ] ♪♪ ♪♪ [ Computer dinging ] Is anybody out there?
[ Computer dings ] Is anybody out there?
[ Computer dings ] [ Toothbrush vibrating ] What is the Internet to me?
It's connection.
Welcome back.
-[ Keys clacking ] -Okay.
[ Mouse clicking ] [ Computer dings ] Soylent -- "Ready-to-drink food."
It's so convenient.
[ Keys clacking ] It's like an entire experience that I've created.
The way I sound, the way I behave.
[ Exhales heavily ] [ Keys clacking ] [ Exhales heavily ] Even though it's all online, it's still very real.
[ Keys clacking ] I'm dumping my life into it, and it almost becomes my soul.
[ Computer ringing ] [ Beep ] Hey.
-Hi, Angel.
How are you?
-I'm good.
♪♪ -How are you feeling about your body and everything?
-Mostly good, but I think I've had a couple setbacks this year.
-I don't like that.
-I know.
-You ever get invited to, like, these gaming competitions anymore?
-I don't go anymore.
-Have you met any of your neighbors?
-No.
I mean, I don't want to.
-No one special?
-No.
I'm just alone.
-I know.
I don't like that.
-[ Mouse clicks ] -I'm actually okay with that.
I mostly want to connect online.
-All I care about is your happiness.
-I love you.
-Bye, Angel.
-Bye.
-[ Mouse clicks ] Being a streamer, I have a skewed relationship with the people who watch me.
It's like a many-to-one relationship.
[ Computer dings ] I don't know, Ness.
I don't know.
[ Computer dinging ] I feel kind of like unrelatable.
I really do struggle to connect.
[ Computer dings ] [ Sighs ] ♪♪ I crave physical affection sometimes.
[ Computer dings ] It's a natural thing to crave.
[ Computer dings ] ♪♪ ♪♪ [ Computer dings ] ♪♪ [ Computer dings ] ♪♪ [ Computer dings ] ♪♪ [ Computer dings ] ♪♪ [ Computer dinging ] ♪♪ ♪♪ [ Dinging continues ] ♪♪ ♪♪ ♪♪ [ Mouse clicking ] ♪♪ [ Scroll wheel clicking ] -Look at this.
-[ Pounding on door ] [ Explosions ] [ Indistinct shouting ] -Get on the ground now!
-Get on the ground!
-People don't like what I do, they get my information and call the cops.
-Separate your feet.
-[ Mouse clicks ] -I don't need this right now.
[ Computer dings ] It's okay.
I'm gonna, like, take a bath.
♪♪ [ Bubbles burbling ] My first real memory... ♪♪ Is coming out of the bath naked 'because my dad had installed a game.
[ Video game beeping, whirring ] ♪♪ Standing on this platform, I was struck with a feeling this was a special place.
I was alone on top of the world.
♪♪ For years, I felt like I was an alien stranded on planet Earth.
♪♪ While the other kids played outside, I was in my room, wired in.
While my classmates learned to drive, I was setting world records in "Beetle Adventure Racing."
-Whoo!
♪♪ -One day I forgot to go to school because I was so absorbed with designing my own video game, a MegaZeux game where you travel through space and save the world from evil robots.
♪♪ I even programmed my schoolyard bully Brad as one of the bosses.
[ Lasers firing ] ♪♪ ♪♪ [ Alarm blares ] Suddenly, my mom came home and saw I wasn't at school.
♪♪ But she wasn't mad.
My mom knew I was absorbed in a creative process.
♪♪ ♪♪ ♪♪ I want to go on a bigger, better journey than "Zelda: Ocarina of Time," and it's gonna be a beautiful new revival.
♪♪ -6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1!
[ Cheers and applause ] ♪♪ -Yee-haw!
-So, I got one.
Time to go home and set this baby up.
-It's finally happening!
Ahh!
♪♪ -Alright.
These controllers are tiny.
♪♪ We haven't even started playing.
1,000.
Thank you all.
Thank you.
-[ Computer dings ] -That's very cool.
Thank you all for tuning in for my -- my new journey.
[ Computer dinging ] You know, today feels like Christmas or something.
[ Computer dings ] Hey, D-Gurl.
Oh, I guess you can't hear me, but thank you.
Hello.
♪♪ Here we are.
♪♪ We've just started.
You're at the beginning here.
This is the very beginning, Shrine of Resurrection.
♪♪ We're about to leave this cave.
♪♪ There's a huge world.
[ Computer dinging ] -You fought valiantly when your fate took an unfortunate turn.
Here you now stand, revitalized 100 years later.
♪♪ -This truly feels more like an adventure than any game I've ever played.
I'm really happy right now.
[ Computer dinging ] ♪♪ -May I ask, do you really remember me?
[ Computer dings ] -Oh, I'm featured right now, am I?
[ Chuckles ] That's actually pretty cool.
[ Mouse clicking ] Welcome, everyone who's watching from the front page.
[ Computer dings ] ♪♪ Damn.
Really?
[ Chuckles ] Is there really 1,600?
Alright.
Welcome, everyone.
[ Computer dings ] - Ya-ha!
Ya-ha!
-Nataran, thank you very much.
-Ya-ha!
Y-Y-Y-Y-Y-Y-Y-Ya-ha!
-3,000.
That's insane.
Thank you.
♪♪ -[ Cash register dings ] -Thank you very much, D-Gurl.
♪♪ [ Computer dings ] What do you do for a living?
And feel free to not answer any of this, obviously.
[ Computer dinging ] [ Computer dings ] Oh, golly gosh, I didn't even know your name was Alex.
Now I know.
-[ Computer dings ] -[ Laughs ] I'm from another galaxy.
[ Computer dings ] Uh, no, I live alone.
I kind of like to have my own space, but also, if I'm alone... ...then it's lonely.
Well, I should probably go to sleep.
[ Computer dings ] Oh, you just got home.
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry.
I gotta go to bed.
I have to.
I guess I kind of stream so that sometimes I am part of people's daily routine.
It's kind of cool to have people tuning in regularly and kind of coming along the journey with me.
Uh, peace out.
Goodbye.
-...that you can bow-spin to do that?
But bow-spinning also doesn't get as many hits, so you need more stamina, so... -"Narci," what's up?
♪ Catarina says ♪ -D-Gurl.
I like your username.
The D stands [bleep] and "death to your foes."
-D-Gurl, have you ever had Soylent?
It tastes really good.
-I'll go to bat for Narci on a lot of things, but not for that [bleep] Soylent [bleep] -What was that on the ground?
Was that like a nut or something?
[ Computer dings ] Or should I say "nut"?
Nut.
Nut.
-This is the way I am to people I like.
So if I'm giving you [bleep] it's probably 'cause I like you.
[ Cash register dinging ] ♪♪ [ Computer dinging ] ♪♪ -[ Chuckles ] -I really love the people here, honestly.
Not to get all, like, soppy and [bleep] -I'm getting a little emotional.
This is magical.
"Oh, my God, there's a star."
♪♪ D-Gurl, will you be my D-girlfriend?
[ Computer dings ] ♪♪ [ Ding!
Ding!
Ding!
Ding! ]
-I think I'm dating Narcissa, right?
I don't know.
♪♪ ♪♪ [ Bird cries ] ♪♪ -"I like the view up here."
I feel like I'm in a high point of my life suddenly.
And I think this game is partially to thank for that.
[ Thudding ] Someone chopped down a tree and, like, launched it super far, but then Link pulls the paraglider, and it actually maintains the momentum from the ragdoll physics.
And I'm like, "Oh, my God."
[ Computer dinging ] ♪♪ Okay, like, look at this tree, right?
♪♪ This looks bad, actually.
This one right here.
This one.
♪♪ [ Link grunting ] ♪♪ [ Chuckles ] ♪♪ Aw, damn it.
I guess we want to go more this way.
♪♪ -New voicemail from Dad.
-Hey, Narcissa.
Just calling up to say hi.
Give me a call sometime.
Alright.
I love you.
-New voicemail from Mom.
-Hi, my darling.
Miss you terribly.
Alright, sweetheart.
Hang in there.
I love you.
Call me when you're free.
Bye.
♪♪ -Ohh.
♪♪ Ugh.
Wait, why?
♪♪ Alright, this is doable, I think.
We can do this.
Let's [bleep] go.
♪♪ Now, that's what I call speedrunning.
-She just started a run.
Let's go.
-I'm disrupting speedrunning, much like I did in 2011.
I want to be the single greatest player of this game.
9 hours and 38 minutes.
5:04.11.
3:51.51.
There's a whole journey to it.
There's the magic to it, with the streams, learning and improving, keeping people company during lonely nights.
♪♪ I can't get up this.
It's too high up.
But I think I can jump it with this.
You take a bomb, you place the bomb.
Then it's, like, shield, backflip and detonate, forward air jump, shield-surf, paraglider.
And then you climb up the wall.
And you have to do it all really fast and accurately.
So let me try.
It's like... [ Explosion ] Wait.
It's hard to do.
[ Explosion ] Oh, my God.
Come on.
[ Explosion ] Come on!
Why didn't that work, though?
I started today feeling very adequate, and now I feel, like, kind of inadequate.
It's okay.
It's okay for me to be a mess on stream sometimes.
It's okay.
I have self-image issues.
Like, a lot.
Being trans, you walk this fine line between being, like, a goddess and a monster.
It's hard for me to explain this, but sometimes it feels like I... am really not... enough or -- I'm not enough or I'm not, like, where I want to be with myself.
I don't want to feel like I'm, like, this... [ Knock on door ] ♪♪ ♪♪ [ Knock on door ] [ Mouse clicks ] ♪♪ ♪♪ [ Mouse clicks ] A group of people showed up and were like, "We're with something.
We're looking for Jake, for people who are having trouble."
And then I said, "I'm not Jake."
And then they said, "Well, what's your name?"
And then I was like... "If you don't know my name, then go away."
And then they're like, "Okay.
But can we leave a card?"
And I'm like, "Okay.
Fine."
"Mental Health Crisis Services."
I wish I asked them more questions.
Like, how the [bleep] -- Like... Why are you here?
[ Sobs ] ♪♪ ♪♪ ♪♪ ♪♪ ♪♪ ♪♪ [ Crow caws ] ♪♪ [ Indistinct shouting ] [ Screaming ] ♪♪ I think I've been very desperate for any attention, and thus the people who show me negative attention, I seek it out.
I've read more hate than you can imagine.
I've read thousands and thousands of hate messages towards me.
"Kill trans people."
Like, "Kill these freaks."
-Watching this stream right now and hopes this woman kills herself.
-Don't be surprised when you find Cosmo dead.
-Narcissa is [bleep] in the head.
-Sideways for attention!
Long ways for results!
-[ Gasps ] [ Glass shatters ] -People reacted really negatively to anything that was apparently some sort of weakness.
So I [bleep] blew up the weaknesses.
I pressed myself up against the wall and did some crazy [bleep].
Please support me.
Please.
-Flush all your credibility and dignity down the toilet.
-Okay!
Would you shut up?!
-Maybe I've caused a little damage.
Certainly other people have caused some damage to me.
It's like I want to respond to all their comments.
"What's going on in your life on the other side of the screen?"
Another [bleep] coward.
Goodbye.
You are coming into random people's chats, being a bigot, being a total piece of [bleep].
I complain about people being negative towards me.
♪♪ Then it causes another whole group of negativity to spawn off of that.
[ Bokoblins laughing ] I can almost bait these people into spreading my image all over the place, even though it's really negative.
♪♪ I'm so lost.
How do I navigate this [bleep] online experience?
[ Mouse clicking ] [ Line ringing ] -Hi, Angel.
-Hi.
♪♪ -How are you?
-I've been a bit emotional lately.
-It's great to be emotional.
And it's great to be deep and aware, which you are, of the world and everything, but, mostly, you shouldn't be crying a lot.
-I know.
I know.
-You know.
I haven't seen you in three years.
-No!
No!
-I know.
♪♪ I should probably be calling more often.
-Yeah, I know.
It's all I do, is think about you every day.
-Bye-bye.
-Bye-bye.
-I feel like I'm in a mental rut and I'm never gonna pull myself out of it.
Okay.
If anyone in my chat is, like, a counselor or a therapist dealing with people who have depression, let's have a conversation publicly.
Twitch must be my all and my everything.
It must be.
It has to be public.
No.
Stop doubting the power of the Internet.
I feel isolated.
I feel it.
♪♪ I feel really lonely.
I don't feel like I have friends.
♪♪ I have this queen-size bed.
And it's like all I want to do is, like, roll around with someone.
[ Chuckles ] And, like, I just don't.
♪♪ I'm just alone.
♪♪ [ Rapid beeping ] -Three!
Two!
One!
Go!
♪♪ -It's me.
-It's D-Gurl.
-This is only our first date.
Come on.
[ Laughs ] I opened up Narci's fridge.
It...is only Soylent and then a [bleep] jar of peanut butter.
I died the moment I opened it.
So... She keeps her room dark.
[ Chuckles ] [Bleep] garbage bags on the window.
So it's kind of a nightmare.
I'm gonna be nesting so [bleep] hard.
-Nice.
-Nesting.
We're gonna upgrade [bleep] apartment.
-Upgrade.
-I'll [bleep] upgrade it.
-Game!
-Alright.
Do you want to, like, end the stream?
-Yeah.
For sure.
-Thank you for tuning in.
I'll see you...later.
[ Mouse clicks ] [ Beeping ] It's been good.
There's this person there with me.
And like, I'm not being, like, harshly judged.
And I just started, like, crying really hard.
And it was, like, incredibly [bleep] like...
It felt almost like therapeutic.
It felt like extremely good.
I think she's back.
Cool.
[ Door opens ] Hey.
-Hey.
-Cool.
-How are you doing?
What's going on?
-Um, I still haven't left the Plateau.
[ Laughs ] -I'm about to start another one, I guess.
Although, I could use a slice.
I could use a slice.
-Yeah.
It's the perfect time for a slice.
-Okay.
We're going back to IRL.
♪♪ ♪♪ ♪♪ ♪♪ ♪♪ ♪♪ ♪♪ ♪♪ ♪♪ [ Roaring ] ♪♪ ♪♪ -Aah!
Right back in it.
Let's go.
One.
Come on.
This is the run.
Yes.
First try.
We're heading to the airport later tonight.
And that'll be the end of our five-day vacation.
-We're squeezing every last possible second out of the day, Narci.
-Yes, this is world-record pace.
Ohh... [ Controller thuds ] -I stasis'd it too early.
So it didn't go.
It wasn't disconnected from the bottom yet.
Okay.
It's over.
It's actually over.
Just [bleep] -- That's it.
Like, there's no more.
That's it.
-Revali's Gale is now ready.
-I could have had it, and I didn't get it.
It's over.
The run's over.
It's time to go.
♪♪ [ Keyboard clacking ] ♪♪ ♪♪ ♪♪ -Okay.
I guess I'll just play games or something.
I don't know.
I missed you, too.
But it's been replaced by missing Narci even more.
The line is it was a gay-cation, but... We just haven't gotten -- We haven't, like, hammered out [bleep].
[ Ringing ] -Hello, hello?
-Let's hash out everything we are to each other right now.
-I'm gonna start a new run while we're chatting.
So you're saying that, like, you would kind of want to develop something with me?
-I mean, I'd like to think I'm building a relationship.
-I've kind of designed my life in a way where I can just focus in on a few things that I really want to work towards.
-Okay.
So what do you want?
-I want to be idolized by my viewers.
20,000 viewers or bust.
[ Indistinct conversations ] ♪♪ If this is the record, then we must post a Reddit thread called "Absolutely disgusting record by Narcissa."
Do I still think I can get over 10,000 viewers in "Breath of the Wild"?
Yes, I do.
I certainly do.
Clear your mind for this jump.
[Beep] We're actually on pace for sub-3:40.
It's unbelievable.
I want this run.
I want to finish this run.
I want this to be the run.
♪♪ Ugh.
Oh, my God.
-That was [bleep] miraculous.
Oh, my [bleep] God!
♪♪ ♪♪ 3:38.31.
This beats the record by minutes.
Peace and love.
Peace and love.
And remember -- Trans girls rule "Breath of the Wild."
♪♪ ♪♪ -The current world-record holder on "Zelda: Ocarina of Time."
[ Cheers and applause ] You immediately have an audience, right?
-Oh, absolutely.
Several thousand usually tune in for "Zelda."
[ Cheers and applause ] ♪♪ I was at the precipice.
And now I'm like a fallen star.
I want to feel like I'm on top of the world.
♪♪ I feel like I'm being swallowed by it.
♪♪ ♪♪ Ugh.
-What's wrong with me?!
-It turns out life is not a fairy tale after all.
-Everything we've done up until now was all for nothing.
[ Sobs ] -I will never succeed in the way I succeeded in the past.
♪♪ This stream will never [bleep] be big again.
It'll never [bleep] happen.
I'm not relatable anymore.
And it doesn't matter if I'm the best [bleep] player in the world at this game.
No one [bleep] cares.
I've gone from being the superstar to the falling star plummeting into Earth like a [bleep] comet, slamming down, creating a shockwave, and burying in my [bleep] chasm so deep as everyone piles on and pushes me down into the caverns of darkness where I'm crowned the queen of hell.
♪♪ They think I'm a deranged freak who's delusional and should kill myself.
They only [bleep] watch me if I'm raving.
So the only solution is just to [bleep] go nuclear.
♪♪ I am the monster that you've all created.
♪♪ [Bleep] people watching and observing me as I sit here and [bleep] go through through the struggle.
I [bleep] hate the game.
I hate people who watch video [bleep].
The Twitch viewership is so [bleep] blind!
You have such [bleep] poor taste.
I [bleep] hate you.
♪♪ So, what happens if I call that phone number?
You get to talk to a counselor.
Well, my phone is right here.
[ Keypad dialing ] [ Line ringing ] -Suicide Prevention Lifeline.
-Um, well, I cut off all my hair, and...
I guess it was, like, an act of self-harm.
And... feeling kind of hopeless.
It's like...people want to see me fail.
And anytime there's any sort of sign of weakness, they pinpoint it and, like, harass me and, like, pick at it like a scab until I'm squeezed and I'm bleeding, and then, like, I'm just incredibly [bleep] alone.
I'm just like a [bleep] alien on this planet.
It just feels easier to, like, damage a social connection than it does to grow it.
Yeah.
I'll get through tonight.
Definitely.
Alright.
Bye.
[ Beep ] [ Phone clatters ] Well, that was okay, I guess.
♪♪ Why weren't you all watching when I broke the "Breath of the Wild" record?
I could have really used your support.
♪♪ I think I'm an attention addict.
♪♪ [ Sobbing ] ♪♪ ♪♪ ♪♪ -Oh, my God.
She did it live on stream?
I don't know.
I just hope she's gonna be okay.
[ Ringing ] -Hello?
-Hey.
How do you feel?
-I, like, ruined myself by cutting my hair off.
-You didn't ruin yourself.
You just [bleep] cut your hair off.
-I don't know how to just be calm and quiet during the hard moments because I feel like I really, really want and need connection.
I feel like crying because...
I'm, like, grateful that you're talking to me right now.
-Happy cries are good cries.
-Can I ask you something?
When would you be free if I was to come?
-Whenever.
-Whenever?
♪♪ ♪♪ We did it.
It's like we're parting the birds.
-Yeah.
♪♪ -See all this?
I'm like, "I'm alive.
Like, this is a thing happening."
-Yeah, -I can't help myself.
-This is happening as [bleep].
-[ Laughs ] Yeah.
♪♪ Do you think your life is too filled with things?
You have your band.
Then you're streaming.
-Yeah.
-And you're cooking.
-I mean, that's just kind of a thing I like to do.
-Yeah.
-That's why I like having people around.
Because I can cook for them.
♪♪ Try to change your perspective so that you see the sky as, like, a giant lake.
-Okay.
-And you're like -- You're above it, looking down at it.
♪♪ -Do you ever want to go to outer space?
-For some reason, I feel like the view is better down here.
-Earth is beautiful, I think, from here and elsewhere.
♪♪ ♪♪ All in all, like, I'm doing better now than I was, like, before the trip.
The time I spent there felt like it kind of healed me somewhat.
Like, I really needed that.
Being able to share some affection and, like... ...just be around people, I guess, without being so isolated.
Just felt... really good.
And...
I don't know.
It's like a breath of -- a breath of -- What is it?
A breath of fresh air.
It might be nice to receive some kind of unconditional love.
Seeing my parents.
♪♪ ♪♪ -This is not a healthy environment for me to be in, therefore I must leave this place.
But do not grieve for my disappearance.
-Bye.
♪♪ -For I will find what I'm looking for in this life.
I will just do it alone.
♪♪ -It's like level one, where you grew up.
Green fields, grass, and trees.
[ Child fussing ] -[ Speaking indistinctly ] -Ohh!
-"You are my most beautiful flower.
-Mommy's gonna catch a fish to fry tonight!
♪♪ -You are the best of your generation.
Brilliant.
Talented.
Sweet.
Honest."
♪♪ -Hi!
Hi!
-Hi!
-"You were special.
Different from other children.
♪♪ That is why I quit my job and became a stay-at-home mother.
♪♪ I couldn't possibly trust anyone else to give you the love, attention, and freedom that your mind needed to explore life."
-Bye-bye!
♪♪ ♪♪ ♪♪ ♪♪ -Ohh!
Ohh-ohh!
[ Laughs ] Ohh!
Aww.
How are you?
Ohh!
How was your flight?
-It was fine.
-Aww!
[ Laughs ] Aw, my baby.
I'm sorry it's been so long.
Aww.
Aww.
Oh, it feels so good to hug you.
Let me look at you.
[ Laughs ] You're just beautiful.
-She's been waiting for that moment for a long time.
-Yeah.
Oh, you look wonderful.
♪♪ ♪♪ -♪ Margaret sees Beth Anne leave ♪ ♪ As the day fight ♪ ♪ Each dead name to be thrown out and die ♪ ♪ She looks on the bodies ♪ ♪ Perfect in their assembling ♪ ♪ Without a care ♪ ♪ I promise you this ♪ ♪ Even if you don't believe ♪ ♪♪ ♪♪ ♪♪ ♪♪
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